I just lost my mother. Like, less than twelve hours ago. I'm 18 years old, with a 10 and 14 year old sister. I now life with my stepfather. It's weird. you never think....Oh, I'm going to have a Just-in-case-mom-dies-today drill. I don't know what to feel. It's like I'm hoping this is a dream. But it's not, is it? My tears, my anguished screams...those were all real, weren't they? I need some help. I have never lost a family member this close before. How do I cope?