2. Age: 28
3. Location: Portland, Oregon
4. Your loss(es): My mommy.
5. Age when you lost your parent(s): 24
6. Age of Parent(s): 60
7. Cause of Death(s): Massive coronary heart attack, brought about by COPD and emphysema
8. What do you wish to accomplish with being a member of Parent_Loss? I would like to have a safe place with people who understand grief to come and share when I need support. It's lonely out here.
Holidays are always the hardest for me. I'm feeling very alone right now. My fiance is great, and he lets me cry, but he doesn't understand. It's been 4 and a half years, and it's been harder this year than it has been any other. Meeting a man I want to spend the rest of my life with, having all of these emotions towards him, means all the rest of them come bubbling out, too. It's quite conflicting.
I'm usually okay, but holidays are the worst.